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Fear of Being Myself. by my-sick-suicide, literature

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Fear of Being Myself.

I have this feeling. Of being alone. Of being afraid. Of not being heard. Of being left out. Of being underestimated. Of being judged. Of being hated. Of being loved more so some times than others. I have these feelings among others. But why? What has happened to feel this way? I'm always worried I've made someone mad while talking to them. I never seem to fully be aware of what's going on around me. I never seem to be fully there. I'm always afraid to be left out. I'm always afraid of being condemned. Of being judged. Why do I have these fears and feelings? I don't seem to understand. I haven't been in the right frame of

Lost. by my-sick-suicide, literature

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Lost.

It's like I've lost you in the middle of the blue ocean. You floated so far away into the lovely blue abyss. So far that a life saver can't even save you. I want you back. Out of that deep blue abyss that they call the ocean. I want you back here safe in my arms. I want to hold you tightly and say I love you over and over. I never want to lose you again. Quite frankly it scared the hell out of me. I want you to see how much I love you. I want you to show me how much you love me. I don't mind if you don't know how. I don't mind if you have to ask someone for advice. I love you and I want you to know that. Please come back to me a

Homophobia Is Gay. by my-sick-suicide, literature

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Homophobia Is Gay.

You liked me. As just a friend. You now strongly dislike me. Why? Well lets just say I have a girlfriend. Lets just add that I'm a girl. Why do you have to talk behind my back? Why can't you accept the fact? You can dump me as your fucking friend. I don't give a shit. You never really had my trust anyway. Let's just add that I'm fifteen. Too young to actually decide if I straight or not? I think not. You say you can't fucking stand it that I like girls. Is it really any of your fucking business? Again, I think not. Why do you have to criticize me when you don't even fucking know me? What did I ever do to you to have you not

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Fifty Shades of Andley (Re-Write) - Part Four by BVBGirl1234, literature

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Fifty Shades of Andley (Re-Write) - Part Four

{Ashley’s P.o.V} Shit! I grimace as I watch Andy empty his stomach again, fortunately this time in a trashcan and not over my Dr Marten’s. After the puking/punching fiasco outside the bar I had escorted Andy off site to where the Range Rover was parked, with my arm around his waist and him leaning heavily on me. I had thought it better to wait outside the car for a few minutes while Andy recovered, rather than risk my leather upholstery. Wiping his mouth on his sleeve, Andy stumbles over to me, half walking half falling into my arms; I catch him and cradle his comatose self against my chest. He mumbles something incohe

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United States
Deviant for 16 years
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Current Residence: Wyoming.
Favourite genre of music: Metal and Riphop.
Favourite photographer: Garth Milan
Favourite style of art: Graffiti
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Favourite cartoon character: Scooby-Doo!

Favourite Visual Artist

Not a clue right now.

Favourite Movies

The Crow.

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Kottonomouth Kings, Twiztid and Slipknot

Favourite Writers

Ellen Hopkins

Favourite Games

The Game

Favourite Gaming Platform

Old School Nintendo :p.

Other Interests

Dirt bikes, Modeling, Photography, and writing and reading.

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sorrowstrange

Sep 27, 2010

Hello. You know Twizted and Slipknot can use sorcery (magic) on you? I know I sound crazy, but I hear them in my head and they are majorly cruel. They abuse me terribly. Also, thats just a name right? Your not actually contemplating suicide? I know its none of my buisness and you dont know me but was kinda worried. Sometimes I think of suicide myself.